Insomnia has struck yet again as its almost 6am and I've been up since around 4am yesterday (Sunday). I'm just sitting here listening to my favorite MP3's that I put into one continually playing directory. Thought I'd better type down some thoughts before I forget as my memory seems to be getting worse and worse.
To everyone who wants a commission; until I get either radiation treatment or chemo drips, I'll be unable to do much 3d aside from some tests. The chemo pills they got me on are really fucking up my body and mind; so much so that my regular doctor at the VA (not the cancer doctor) is super pissed when I saw her last week. The pills I'm on (sutent) are so hardcore that I literally have to take a 2 week break to give my body time to recover from the extreme effects. Long story short, I barely eat; yet have gained 100lbs of pure water weight. My blood pressure is through the roof and my hair is almost totally grey where it was brown 2 years ago. I cannot focus enough to do more than fail miserably at 3d; and I've noticed that my quality (aside from a single test image) is regressing to the point I'm honestly thinking of giving up on 3d until this cancer shit is taken care of. So I'm sorry to say that for the forseeable future (4-8 months) I will be physically and mentally incapable of doing a commission; unless you want to pay for crap.
My apologies for sounding like a whiny bitch; but to be honest, I wouldn't wish these pills on my worst enemy. If you want to have fun; just look up my pills online and read the 11 pages of side effects!
Again, I'm sorry to all who wanted a commission from me; glad I didn't feel well enough to 'think' I could do it and then get your money. I'll be back hopefully by fall as I used to be; but right now I'm only around 20% of the pervert I was until recently.
Cancer's a motherfucker folks; don't let anyone tell you otherwise!
Please don't reply with sympathy, etc. I just had to vent my thoughts as if my Sister read them she'd get all depressed; so I can only vent here safely.
Y'all have a good one for the old Uncle, ok?